What do you do when you feel a lot of the decisions you made weren't the right ones? When braking up with someone on purpose and based on reason and logic turns out to be braking up with the single person that ever cared as much about you as you did about her, the person you spent your greatest years and went through some of the roughest times with.
What do you do when you are at a crossroads? When you have come down the path you wanted and got to it's end and now you stand baffled at the enormity of the ANYTHING that lies before you.
What do you choose now, when you feel the only person that will ever fully understand you is drifting out of reach in her own new world and you made a choice that will keep you two apart for another good couple of years? Would YOU dare to hope to win her back after all that time? Would she still be the same person? Would you still like her, enjoy her, hear her, smell her, trust her, comfort her, disagree with her, hate her, despise her the way you loved to in the past? Would she even want that?
Would you hope to find someone that you could get even remotely as close with as you were with her?
Or would you just try to be a good friend, help as much as you can and hope that all the problems go away "because you've earned it"?
What do you do when your heart says "screw the brain" and the brain goes "fuck that heart"? When you know you shouldn't do anything but you desperately want to, nevertheless.
What do you do when you see that someone's in a jam and you want to help but you just can't because you're just not in THAT PLACE anymore?
I think I need to invest in something productive right know... anyone know any good pimps?
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